Something going to be forever

for the past four months, with or without reason, I have to say that I really meant to try my best to forget, ignore someone, and totally tried my best to get the same person out of my life, and my mind, certainly.

actually this kind of thing has happened on me for millions of times, I could even hardly to tell how many times on earth I've tried, and every time again, I failed every time, every time when the minute I see him again.....

not a lover, not a relative, not even a friend, but this kind of mood is unique and special, even I thought I could get rid of it easily, and later I found it extremely difficult and started to try harder and harder, and finally, till last night, I finally know that, no matter how hard I try, or more and more I know about him, his shortages and those characs I hate so much, even the fact that I never know whether he's telling truth or lies when he talks, I could never get rid of him...

this is something which would go to be forever, I think so.
and at the same time, hope God would bless that the other one I am trying to give up would not be forever.